Monday, February 18, 2008
Okay, here i am now, just at the close of yet another day, at the break of another roller coaster of emotions... I had actually typed a vile post of detest and angst but the network failed and i was unable to upload it, to make things worse, i lost the ENTIRE long long long post... but, i guess it was just as well... :D
Over the course of the day i have ONE major presentation which was Design History and Culture, of which was an explosive three hours of unbridled anger and tongue-lashings, i must apologise to Veron and Yujie if i was being totally sacarstic and unlikeable at some point but... IT WAS REALLY YOUR FAULTS LOR... hahaha but nevermind, i guess at the end of the day there are always things we dislike about each other and i bet there are people out there of dislike me as much as i disliked them for those three to five hours... It's a vicious cycle, i treat you badly and it'll affect your mood and cause you to hurt someone else... i guess, hurting others thins your own shell also, it just makes you more vulnerable and more sensitive... double edged sword, kill others kill yourself... :D so here's a big great SORRY to veron and yujie and i LOVE you many many... esp. veron, you're my classmate from block 1! how could i ever hate you... wahahaha... :D
anyway, after that was just a whirlwind of meetings, Creative comm meeting which was... quite productive although i must say that a Christine that's high on tiredness can really be annoying... hahaha, but i guess we got the main gist... :D Simultaneously and slightly before also was marketing design meeting, which really got us somewhere which is so great and i'm really happy to be in a group that i can work really well with... hahaha i was just biting my nail when i realised i was playing with amanda's hair just now... AHHHH!! DISINFECT DISINFECT!
After that was... programme meeting although i dunno why they asked me to go cuz it didn't really concern me much... hahaha they gave me the compiled proposed themes from the groups... three nia... hahaha okay lah, better than nothing, it's worth accompanying amanda and sarah and christian for... :D VSC WOO~! ... Farhan has been on a high for a consecutive week AT LEAST, i'm concerned... but what the heck huh... hahaha... After that i peeked in on the appeal interviews for abit...seemed quite bleak to me, didn't think that spirits were high at all and i think i offended fiona by whopping her head while she was trying to eat a ruffle.. hahaha sorry lah, but ruffles get me high... :D hahaha...
After that took the journey back to tampines MRT with hajar and froggie and i swear ah, she does the best anime voices in the whole wide world, and of course she does the night walk thing really well...hahaha, i'd have recorded her doing voices! If only i knew where to find the record function on my phone... took me abt 3 minutes searching before i gave up... :D Good job izak :D hahaha...
Journeyed to the West to JURONG WEST to get the social studies book from shuyi, SHE TOTALLY SAVED OUR LIVES AHHH hahaha, not it's shuyi from my sec school uh, not SOK NGEE... :D hahaha... anyway yea, kinda miss having the great life in secondary school quite carefree, no big assignments and multiple projects to do... no pimples... BUT ANYWAY, i'm resigned to my lot now, i've chosen design and i will go all out and DO design...
AMOS AND CHRYSTAL TO MY HOUSE DIS WEEKEND???!!!! :D :D :D :D
:: izak blogged @
9:28 PM
Saturday, February 16, 2008
hats and ice cream...
here am i, not having posted for a long long time...
going on life without a minute to step back and take a look at the big picture...
some secrets are bigger than others...
some tasks are harder than others...(or we think they are)
some motivations are weaker than others...
i wonder with a pain in the flesh, how we move on each day...
we hope to linger in our perfect place, in the day with a coffee in hand at a sunlight cafe with an intellectual book... at night in a dimly lit place with an alcohol and a friend...
we can try so hard sometimes, too hard, fighting till we lose the goal, stuggling till we slip recklessesly on the ice...
anchor me to the ground...
some friends are harder to love than others... but, not everyone is easy to love...
turn on a narration to my life, run it like a movie...
food and drink, money and well, quietly wondering about things.... listening to my own footsteps and screaming inside sometimes to relieve the irritation in my gut...
walking to wrong direction though you know better... now walk better, walk right...
seeing things alone, seeing things in cold weather...
hugging yourself... maybe being laughted at and laughing at....
here are the random things i want to say and after i walk away from the computer will my life be any better? hahaha would yours after postring or reading my post...
figure with a fake background. it's always been, we always are and will always be... :D
:: izak blogged @
4:13 AM
