it's ten in the morning, i just woke up, so... i have nothing to blog about... haha will blog about yesterday luhh, had off day, haha spent it with friends and really just spent some time slackin' off... haha... so happy..
so in the morning, i got out of the house to meet kook for a movie, i was lugging a huge gigantic 2+ kilogram plastic bag of notes for shuyi, it nearly killed me k, i was like fine with it at first but after awhile the handles began to cut into my hand so i decided to get a new plastic bag at Watsons(the manager wasn't too happy... :P bitter man)... the plastic bag was super lousy anyway and it broke the moment i began using it and when i decided to hug it in the end the colour stained my shirt, an ugly green! !@#$%^&* hahaha... action city plastic bag kinda saved my life, the cashier-man was really nice about it, hahaha KUDOS... :D
movie was... weird... hahaha we watched pathfinder, something about red indians fighting against invading vikings... it was pretty gory, i mean seeing people get literally chopped up and sliced up is really scary... i was like... "kook... kook..." in the beginning... eh! any human being would have done that k, i'm not a wuss... and she was pretty shocked too... rahh... haha so anyway, i'm used to making pointless remarks during movies... and as i was making another one this ang moh in the other section two rows in front turned around and told me to "quiet please"... AHHHHH, so embarrassing... nevermind, haha in their country, freedom of speech is emphasised no? hahaha
lunch at macs...
continued lugging gigantic bag-like monster...
we had coffee at spinelli's after, let me tell you their mocha is not really very good, the taste is very unbalanced... haha oh well, money down the drain again, haha, kook and i walked around heeren to find many of the shops closed down, haha pretty sad... :( hahaha... we saw fiona xie and dasmond koh at heereN! haha we walked past them, with me lugging my gigantic baggie blocking my entire self, and the moment we walked past them i kinda... yelped? haha but that's about all, we saw them... 3 times in all... hahha... *yelps*
met selene at dover mrt after that... haha, we headed down for band where we got scolded by miss ng for saying "hi" and not greeting her instead... hmmm, i get this whole respect thing and i feel remorse for my grave mistake, but she was so hostile and the look in her eyes... bitter woman... hahaha so i wasn't feeling very good already, i mean in the morning already having been scolded by some unknown ang moh stranger(which lido i full of by the way) now i'm being scolded for trying to be friendly... haha, i was kinda pissed... our band is not a band with senior support, you get what i mean...pretty pathetic... augh... hahaha
i sat there and listened to their syf songs with selene... and we both don't think they'll be getting gold... trust me! i have technical musical reasons for what i am saying! if naomi/joshua were there they would back me up! They got scolded again at the end of band, haha i am SO happy that i have graduated because, honestly, i felt my time at fairfield was like some sort of a concentration camp with the band and with the rules and what not, i'm glad i'm going to poly and i am so glad that i can leave this part of me behind, don't think i ever want to go back there again... haha, but amidst all the pain! made really good friends, rahhh... love you guys...
after we left band selene and i met up with chanel, we had a good time catching up, the last time we went to essential brew i think was like... when jeremy left? i can't really remember... hahaha, before heading down to holland v we went to the dover playground and it occurred to us... how much we grew up... since primary 5 we've known each other (for selene since primary one, cuz we were in the same class...rahh) and we're friends until now... haha, but we're not the same, we've all come into our own, become different people... :D so glad.. hahaha
:D
walked home from holland v after that, taking a different route this time, walked by commonwealth, it's faster... haha if only i had some emo music! darn... hahaha... need to format my memory card... augh...
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6:46 PM
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
i really want to try the fishballs from the bubble tea stall down the road from BALENO... they look tasty especially when customers saunter in with their chilli laden fishballs swimming around in the plastic bag... haha, not fair...
i was watching this special series on angelina jolie on tvmobile just now.. and i was listening to jolin tsai in the shop just now... PEOPLE WITH THICK LIPS MAKE IT IN LIFE! FACE IT! :D
i am totally a non-brainuser... i just deleted all my fotos off flickr, cuz i wanted everything burned into cds and so it happens i happily caused my entire blog to be PHOTONAKED! photoless!!! augh... shall use my brain next time ... :D i promise...
i've sprouted YET another ulcer(btw, this is how i know that i'm related to my father :D) and i'm going to be in some extreme pain for the next few days... haha augh, darn it...
okay i found my adaptor so after such a long while maybe some pics to be posted up(i changed my mind!).. hahaha, i'm a total hair disaster now, but once i get my hands on some extra wads of cash or maybe some black hair dye... yea, well, we all make the wrong decisions SOMETIMES... ;D
was discussing the possibility of us all become social escorts at work today with purence and jenson... they're totally convinced that it's a money spinning job and are expecting $1,ooo,ooo/mth for shopping company and well, *ahem* ... hahaha, no, do not intend to change jobs!
after work i walked to outram to top up my card and seek an atm... but there wasn't one so i felt pretty pissed about it... after that walked the long road to the 166/197 bus stop near kookie's house... haha, should have turned up at her door and said hi right... i missed my bus... so there i was listening to emo zhang hui mei songs with the wind blowing and the leaves and flower petals dropping... man, it felt like something out of a movie... i guess i was kinda happy that i missed the bus, i like alone time... Alvin(my colleague who's like this horoscope genius) tells me that aquarius ppl tend to have mood changes and sometimes like to be alone... not that i believe this stuff... but BINGO... :P so i was in THE ZONE at that point...
i hope i don't have a sore throat tml, ktv ktv ktv...
i hope i remember to shave before leaving the house tml... heh...
i hope i get some stuff done on my off day...
i miss stanley, benjamin and caroline... miss em miss em miss em
:D rahh
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9:05 AM
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
yesterday had a terrible day at work, attributed to my left grey contact lens that refused to stick to my eye, so the entire day it just swam around, blocking my view, blurring my view and causing my eye to itch... i was in utter misery! i couldn't have imagined any situation worse than this, it was so frustrating... i just wanted to... cry... hahaha... i know, GET OVER IT right...
in desperation due to a new upcoming pimple, i went and got myself another bottle of t3 on sunday... now i have two bottles of t3, one i carry around and one i leave at home... it's a good system, i can stick some on at work as well... and in case all else fails, i have a carton of milk in the fridge too... :D hahaha, i pray this works...
i was packing my room and realised that i had left my 'xu ruo xuan' album sitting on my shelf... looking down at me with her innocent eyes... augh, haha, u know the songs aren't all that good i don't know why i bought the album anyway, quite a waste of my 17.50... maybe it's just cuz she's pretty haha...
becca just disappeared online...
i will make it a point one night just to sit my butt down and read blogs, i haven't done that in awhile, haha thanks to the fact that i have been working and working, i really dun like working right now because i'm really tired and it gets really tough sometimes... plus! i'm sick... AGAIN.. record breakingly, i have fallen sick again, the how manieth time in the short span that i was working... haha... this time it's a cold, i think there's a flu bug going around, everyone is like getting the sniffles and the snorfles...and i'm getting ulcers! which means i'm heaty... so how can i have a cold and be heaty at the same time!!!
bah, i'm putting things down, letting things go and moving on, now you have to learn how to do that if not you'll never be able to progress... understood? :D
mf just declared me LATE FOR WORK... which i am not, after working there for so long i know i can leave my house at 11.15 and still reack work at 11.45 and be on time for the 12 o clock shift... however! i realised that once i start school if i have a 12 o clock CLASS and i leave the house at 11.15, i might as well go back to sleep cuz... i'll never make it anyway... so the bottomline is... i'm in really really really big trouble... eh? hahaha
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7:41 PM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Whenever in doubt... put on a joss stone CD... rahhh, haha i'm so in love with joss stone's new album... speaking of which, i've yet to claim my other joss stone CDs from peggie... augh, the depravation!!! So i got on my joss stone and i'm ready for yet another blog entry...
i don't know why but my fingers are simply flying on the keyboard today, it's simply phenomenal and great, i like the feeling... :P hahah speaking of "flying", today i had my first taste of POS(parade of schools) training... omg, my hands are going to drop off and my back is going to melt into a mass of flesh... hahaha, i have not done any rigorous physical activity since... dunno when... and now you want me to lift people up and throw them then catch them again...*moans*
i had two cups of milk tonight... or last night for that matter, now is morning already, hahaha, let me tell you something, MILK IS GOOD FOR YOU... :D haha it really makes ur complexion better man, haha carol endorses it... hahaha... one step closer to a pimple free life...
was just chatting with becca... haha SHE NEVER FAILS TO BE ONLINE LATE IN THE NIGHT... :P haha so i have some company on lonely late nights... haha, we were wondering why gay men were all so rich.. like, RICH RICH RICH... you know what i'm talking about... yea and we were discussing stuff... haha i love a late night chat...
joss stone beats are thumping in my ears, i love joss stone, she totally rocks my world... :P haha, BUY HER ALBUM, i COMMAND u! BUY! ... oh gosh, i'm so drunk on it... :P okay my eyes are going woozy, as in i can't see properly... haha they've been bloodshot... coloured contacts have suffocated them... haha need sleep... rahhh... :P
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9:46 AM
Monday, March 19, 2007
yesterday as i was on the bus home, sinking into the seat of the bus i saw the most terrible thing, two lesbians kissing like just two seats in front of me... one had a tiny ponytail and one had a longish boyish haircut... but anyway, the "guy" had "his" arm around her shoulder and they were in kissing away and blah blah... haha i intended to look down abashedly but decided to watch anyway cause it was too troublesome to keep looking down... rahhhh, you gotta admit it's pretty interesting...
after they got off, i thought the worst was over, at queenstown, up came this couple in secondary school uniform(i won't say which) and they sat down slightly further up, and what were they doing? kissing! omg! what's wrong with people nowadays, haha anyway the woman sitting directly opposite was looking quite scandalised as well... :P
AND! just as i was getting off the bus, i looked to the back of the bus and lo and behold, there was the couple that came up at the IKEA bus stop and they were... KISSING! lol, what was i, on the love bus or something? lol, so anyway, woke up this morning and eye was sore... haha NO THANKS OKAY!?!?!
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7:25 PM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
The time now is 12 midnight, issac just arrived home twenty minutes ago, had a bowl of koko krunch and had a bath... doesn't feel like a million bucks, but gets down before the computer anyway...
His tired body heaves back and forth on the high chair before the table... He turns on the soulful joss stone CD he has in the computer, wonders about the last line in the prelude to the album, "you've gotta have the balls to change"...
He woke up late this morning, he was supposed to be at bouna vista at 7 but woke up at 625... he woke up and his first reaction was "shucks" but with more vulgar overtones... out of the house in fifteen minutes, it's times like this when you barely have time to even take notice of the house you're living in...
He arrived at church feeling totally alienated because of cross training, a little lack of belonging tugged at his heart... but he continued on the entire morning, getting absorbed with the processes of customer service at the bookstore... his grey contacts dry up and scream for release...
joss stone's cd pulsates through his brain... "clinically i'm insane"...
After church he headed straight to toa payoh for work... lunch alone at macs first, felt depressed but had joss stone plugged up in his ears still, spared from the howls from the campus superstar auditions nearby...
He reports for work and makes small conversation here and there with some of the staff there, he later discovers they're newer than himself, gloats secretly... discovers that toa payoh baleno is a different work environment altogether, but he still tries to adapt... boredom sets in... the district manager comes down and asks him if he wants to go and get a drink for himself, he remembers, in baleno he's extremely pampered and treated like a child... :( must he really quit?
On the car ride home he feels like his body is numbed from the entire days activities, he feels like he's truly be stretched to the maximum, he is a rubber band that finally is allowed to relax from being stretched... he didn't have a meal the entire day but he didn't feel hungry, thank God... :P
he arrives home to see his dvds sitting there prettily, rejoices within, finally those secrets behind the fancy movie posters are going to come to life on his screen..."step up" and "take the lead"... sincerely thanks jason...
screams at shawn online for not giving him his blog URL once again... feels like a nagger, but he hates it when things are withheld... he's a child, an impatient being, he wants everything, he wants anything, in an instant, a flash that goes by, an angel by his bed and a monster under it... the tooth fairy under his pillow and the imaginary friend that snuggles up in the dark of night... :P
bless ya ;P
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9:09 AM
Friday, March 16, 2007
WOO :P hahaha today just before going to work i got my hair dyed back to black... but in an impulsive moment i got a red streak put on my fringe as well... haha :D *oops* ahaha, what can i do, it's all for fun uh... :D hahaha so i realised how cheryl felt for real, haha wondering if my hair is nice in the first place and if it's too short and blah blah... haha, got lotsa bad reviews for the red streak though, haha :( at least one person is fine with it... - me :D
today i went to IMM to relief for in baleno for like... four hours, it felt like forever mostly because i wasn't feeling well and a little feverish... but oh well, i survived... haha, i think i kinda took forgranted that the people would be nice and warm since the people at plaza sing were really nice... haha can't expect them to accept a crazy person pouncing on customers with a red streak in his hair... haha... they were like totally BONDED can, LOL oh well... just as i was warming up to them the time was up ( THANK GOD ) and so off to cell group i went... rahhh...
JOSS STONE'S NEW ALBUM IS COMING OUT!
GEt iT! i mean seriously she's good! haha she's the only artiste whose albums i collect entirely ( she only has like... two ) hahaha so... she's just really great... and she has red hair now!! WOOT~! :P what a pleasant surprise... hahaha... :P
MSN IS NOT WORKING TONIGHT, I AM DEPRESSED
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9:40 AM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
i accidentally discovered katherine mcphee's debut mtv... haha the song's vibe is really great... :P bet you'll like it too, you seriously HAVE to watch it, it's nice...;D HOWEVER, i think there's something wrong with the vid, the words and the mouth doesn't match so it's really weird... hehehe...
today got out of the house to have sakae and watch "music and lyrics" with waisum, we accidentally got a 10% discount thanks to altona's table just behind us, haha, so much for pleasant shocks... :P hahaha... the movie was great though, laughed my butt off, save for the last part where i was having an extreme high tide and need to go to the toilet really urgently... NEVER upsize your coke for 10cents.. :D
after that went to meet cheryl to help her to attempt to get into temasek poly :D haha, she has a totally new snazzy hairstyle from her trip to toni&guy's hair academy, haha i'm totally digging it, think i'll cut the same style soon... so here was the first time i was going to TP and i was a little nervous because like the country bumpkin i am and the lazy human being i am i never checked out the webbie and stuff so i have NO IDEA what the school looks like and WHERE in tampines it was... so just blindly followed cheryl into oblivion... ... ... wow... ... hahaha, oh well but the stupid office was closed and cheryl kept blaming herself for us wasting time(the poor girl!) and so... we're going to try another day! (fingers crossed!) i hope she gets in, then i'll have a buddy... :D hahaha...
WHERE THE HECK IS MY ENROLMENT PACKAGE< CARISSA GoT HERS! :P
WHY WON'T SHAWN GIVE ME HIS URL! !@#$%^&* *throws tantrum* haha
i want my black hair back! :)
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5:59 AM
Friday, March 9, 2007
hello there, i'm here, beaten and torn and shattered by entire slews of relational trauma and confusion that had happened within the last few hours... i'm so utterly confused and affected and yet so utterly NOT INVOLVED... haha...
cell group was pretty fantastic, i know i NEVER blog about cell group and church stuff but then i just felt that it was really great and i really felt that within those few hours God had simply put up the "call me" sign to tell me that whenever i was being shaken, i could lean on Him... haha, feel so loved right... LOL
i just realised that my older posts can't be viewed so i'm washing out the old posts as i go on, that's pretty sad... oh well, what to do... :( hahah, CAROL! HELP!
anyway, i took many pics today, it's really cool but then the weirdest thing happened on my way home, i saw this homeless guy sleeping at the top of the staircase of the overhead bridge, at first i was shocked and i didn't really dare to go past but i did and after walking away for abit i decided that i simply HAD to take a photo, so i walked back and quickly snapped before going off, he didn't even flinch, guy was dead asleep... what really caught me there was my first reaction, i was really scared man, would you be?
and now i leave you with this picture simply to show you what i look like without photoshopping my face and to prove to you that i'm having a horrible outbreak... :P cheerioz!(thanks merrien, your hands really improved the pic, i think they covered a pimple or two... :P)
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8:33 AM
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
you know there are those moments when you just feel so so so alone and there's only you and you alone? there are sometimes when these moments are so lonely and yet there are times when you just feel they're so peaceful, or when you see a picture or listen to a song and you just feel so at peace...
it's like walking next to a busy road or going to the beach yourself, it's like staring out of your window from your dark room and just staring at the world go by... many a time it's when we're in these moments you just feel that the world stops spinning for a moment and you're not living for anyone or anything and you just exist for existence's sake, u don't worry for tomorrow or what you did today, the road is just a road, a tree is just a tree, they're just what they are everything is just what it is. There's nothing behind the picture, there's no essence or abstract representation, there's no hidden purpose, it is what it is...
this brain, if you come to think of it is not necessarily at our control, you see something, you think something, it's just an automatic thing. You see, you always thought, 'i am in control' and then you realise that you're not and you break down and you feel so broken down when ur brain says, 'no, i want to do this' and your will says, 'i need to do this' and you're such a mess inside... your heart sinks to your stomach you just feel drifty and light, like you're on anasthesia, you feel giddy and weak...
sometimes when we want something so bad, but we can't have it, we turn around and try to make ourselves bigger than it, better than it and so we can say we're too good for it, "i'm too good for this bag", "i'm too good for this lifestyle", "i'm too good for this girl/boy"...
i am feeling like i'm in an 'alone' moment but then i'm not sure if it's good or bad, i realised i'm NOT in control and i find i want something, bad bad bad, but trying to make myself out to be too good for it is too much to bear, it's not painful, it's numbing, i'm making myself something else, you know? like you cover up something and it becomes bigger and bigger? yea, like that... -_- hates -_-
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8:20 AM
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
whee, decided that pictures were abit boring already so now i've got a video on! haha i kinda like just accidentally discovered this song when i was doing a 'rihanna' search on youtube... haha well, it's way cool and there doesn't seem to be a music vid so i think this i just as good anyway, haha it's all pics of rihanna though... -_- hahaha
i fell sick again! haha but it's not the serious sick but just the nose pain kinda thing, haha too much exertion with the prayer meeting and stuffs methinks... ANYWAY i was thinking about "Get Right" this jennifer lopez song and i just felt that it's so cool because it never fails to make me feel that i have to 'get right', like you know get everything back into order and to put your life back on track and stuff like that, haha it might be a club hit with lots of booty shakin' but it doesn't mean that it ain't so helpful to the common innocent student like me... nayyyy hahah... :P
hahah i need to get out, i want to meet up with carissa(padme's toilet paper) and stanley(drag grad) and all the pppppppeople from my fairfield days... hahaha... ooh ooh ooh, yea i got into TP visual comm, my dream course, haha :P cheers!
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7:01 PM
Friday, March 2, 2007
i can't really find a nice picture to put up today, so i thought i wouldn't put up one, anyway since carissa was saying that i was such a inflexible person to be so systematic and to put a pic in every post... haha i think words are just boring sometimes...
oh well, i noticed that in chinatown when you're in the toilet and you know in guys toilets we have urinals, anyway, i dunno why the old men like to peep over when everyone is peeing and peek at other peoples privates, they're called privates for a reason you know... -_- anyway it's so irritating and how on earth are you supposed to pee under watchful eyes? i mean what's the point you want to compare or what? -_-
and yesterday i met the ultimate in shameless pervert, just as i finished my pee this man about fifty years old who was using the urinal next to mine leaned over and asked me the time, i showed him my watch(SO STUPID) and though it was 4.30 i think i told him it was 5(i was scared) then he commented something about my privates and then babbled something about him being a doctor(so?) then followed me to the sink asking me how old was i... !@#$%^&*... (pisses in pants) i didn't look him in the face all the way just quickly washed my hand and sped out the door, didn't bother to reply him either... was traumatised for abit after that but recovered... on second thoughts i should have like punched him or something right? haha but i'm a good boy, don't use violence... haha
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8:36 AM
DisClaimer
wonders about plastic surgery...
is it painful?
is it like smashing ur face in a wall?
desires nose job
:P
The One & ONLI
17 years old
wonders about confusion...
complication...
and the complex stuff in life...
wonders about acne too...
:P
you?
