Saturday, May 19, 2007
emo pics, everyone, i think some of these are actually quite cool... taken around school while we were on our mad photographing assignment...
i am having a very bad pimple outbreak and would do anything to get rid of it, my skin feels like alligator butt now... i attribute this to a lack of sleep and a large intake of kopi-beng and kit kat chunky... i'm feeling kinda oily right now...
just feeling so low nowadays, like tired and stressed and depressed kinda low... must be the school, can't wait for the holidays to come... i just can't get moving anymore, i'm just stagnating and stuck and i know i've got loads of homework to do but i just can't get down to doing them... like i end up watching la bi xiao xin and playing crazy taxi and slacking off instead...
i lost my whole plastic bag of lollipops on CCN day!!! OMG... 2.40 down the drain and lots orange flavoured pleasure gone... :( i feel sad... :P nevermind, the hamsters were so cute... inspire me to get a pet... :D
feel like an irritating person, i irritate others... i wish i were an antisocial nerd, then no one would be bothered by me but that would make me even more depressed cuz i need people to talk to me... lol, i'll buy a tickle-me-elmo then... :D hahaha... i'm quite sick of me, i don't want to be me anymore my life has totally lost control, what the heck was i thinking... i was meant for outcasted livings man...
i conclude! making jokes is a waste of energy, i shall thus become a jokeless blob... ;D
anyway, that aside, i skipped church today, i totally imagined that i was sick... i had diarrhoea and a spinning headache... they'll probably suspect that i was faking it but i imagine they won't cuz i really looked shagged at the last cell group... i'm going off the track with God, i'm trying :P now don't tell me i didn't try hard enough...
missed POS preview, missed service, missed amanda's b'day...
i hate self... i hate the way i turned out... i know i'm weird man, i don't need to be told i'm weird, i have a mirror and five senses too... i don't like being loud and squealish either but then it's very tiring to forgive everyone that calls you a bitch... :D (this is not the main point of the post :D) Look i ain't mr. sensitivity here okay, lol, i've lived being the backside of things all my life, think i'd blow up now? :P nah, don't think so... :D
anyway today is my last day at work, one load of my shoulders... though i know i really need the money, but i guess that saving and scrimping is another option...
:: izak blogged @
10:36 PM
